[Monthly Love Letter] April : About The (almost) Half-Year

Five Months! 🙂

Welcome back to monthly report (ups sorry, I mean monthly letter) hehehe.

Ah, it’s been a month since he left me to another island due to his work (really?). If someone’s asked me, how long he’s been gone then I answered with ‘a month’, then I’m sure the next sentence I would hear is “Woow, it’s been a month? It’s feels like he’d left last week. Time flies, rite?”

I smiled bitterly. Deep inside me, I wanna shout, “Are you kidding? it’s like a year to me. If you haven’t feel how long distance feels, please be nice, be quiet. Bcs it’s really hard for me (well, I hope it’s hard for him too, hahaha).

Sometimes I wondered, could I, we, survived this relationship? I just can’t imagine how, to be faraway from someone that really matter to you, someone that you want to tell everything on a first place, or simply someone you can hug if you need a support.

And also, there’s a time when we lives in two different worlds, well, not hearing his voice in a day it such a nightmare, but yap, I have to get used to it. I have to train myself for not being such a spoiled.

Anyway, despite all of the crazy things abt the long distance thingy, I still blessed for what I’ve got. I’m blessed that I have someone who always try to make sure that I have a great day before I called a day, even if I had a bad day, he know how to flip it back. Someone who always fulfill his promises and always try to make me happy, at least by giving me the goodnight greetings and kisses from faraway. He’s my daily-and-primary moodbooster ♡

I love you from a thousand miles away! ♡

Takkan pernah terlintas, tuk tinggalkan kamu, jauh dariku, kasihku….

Karena aku milikmu, kamu milikku, separuh nyawaku, hidup bersamamu

Berdua kita lewati, meski hujan badai takkan berhenti

Sehidup semati, mentari pun tahu, ku cinta padamu……

(Jaz – Teman Bahagia)

ps: can’t wait to see you, darling! I guess I’m going to love April as much I love November…. 🙂

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Have you ever feel too sad until you couldn’t cry?

Have you ever feel like you want to cry hard but you can’t, bcs you know you would hurt someone you love?

Have you ever feel like you have to wear a mask of ‘happy-face’ while deep down you feel so blue?

Yes, I have. And I feel it rite now.

[Monthly Love Letter] March: Another 3 for The 4th Times!

Welcome back!

I guess this is my first monthly-letter which I wrote since you’re a thousand miles away from me. Oh God, I still can’t believe we have to deal with this kind of relationship, the one that I hate the most, yes, The Long Distance Relationship.

Honestly, I’m scared. I can’t imagine how hard it would be, not be able to see you for a long time, not be able to see our favorite movie together, not be able to go to the arcade; to play the claw-machine, not be able to run to you if I had a bad day; to cry in your hug. I hate to face the truth that you won’t be next to me; to hold my hand, everytime I walked down the street.

But please don’t try to feel sorry for it! I know we’re gonna make it, distance means nothing when someone means everything, rite? 🙂 I know, even when you’re faraway from me, you will always make me feel that you never leave me.

Anyway, I want to say thank you for all the things that we’ve passed, I can’t believe that we already reached a quarter-of year. Even a million thanks won’t be enough for all your love, care, and kindness. Oh ya, also thank you for always put so much effort on me and made me feel loved. You really matter to me and I love you.

So, good luck, ’till we meet again, ya! I know you might be so busy with your work, but just promise me that you’ll always make time for me, at least to say goodnight before I fall asleep.

Whenever I feel,
I’m all by myself,
And every word is a cry for help,
I just think of you and then,
I’m safe again.
I feel you close though you’re somewhere else.
(Collabro – Lighthouse)

ps: thanks for giving me the new definition of home, where the heart is.

[Monthly Love Letter] February : The Almost 100 Days We’ve Spent……

Actually I should’ve post these monthly letter on Saturday, February 3rd. So sorry for those who wait, bcs I had a very good time ’til I forget to write down my letter on that day. Anyway, congratulation to us for passing the 3 months! (yeaay). So, have you already tired or getting bored of my presence? Because I’m not and I won’t.

I have to say…. I love every second that I spent with you, especially when we have a little chitchat abt us, abt the day that we passed together, also, the daydreaming about how our future will be. I love to spend many times with you, even we don’t have anything to say, anything to tell. Being with you is just being the top of my favorite way to make myself happy!

In the other hand, there’s a little thing that actually really scares me…. Knowing that you gonna be so far away from me, somehow it hurts. Until now, I always try my best to deal and prepare myself in case tommorrow you’ll be gone. But don’t worry, everywhere you go, everywhere I go, we’ll make it through. Bcs I’ve heard someone’s saying that absence make heart grow fonder, and I believe that.

Thank you for always being there to support and cheer me up whenever I need it, thanks for always try to write a smile on my face, thanks for not letting me down and sad. You’re the best and I love you! 🙂

” To be young and in love in New York City,
To not know who I am but still know that I’m good long as you’re here with me,
To be drunk and in love in New York City,
Midnight into morning coffee,
Burning through the hours talking……”

(Lauv – I like me better)

I know it’s not NYC and I’m not allowed to get drunk, but, I’m sure you got my point. See you on next monthly letter!