[Monthly Love Letter] April : About The (almost) Half-Year

Five Months! πŸ™‚

Welcome back to monthly report (ups sorry, I mean monthly letter) hehehe.

Ah, it’s been a month since he left me to another island due to his work (really?). If someone’s asked me, how long he’s been gone then I answered with ‘a month’, then I’m sure the next sentence I would hear is “Woow, it’s been a month? It’s feels like he’d left last week. Time flies, rite?”

I smiled bitterly. Deep inside me, I wanna shout, “Are you kidding? it’s like a year to me. If you haven’t feel how long distance feels, please be nice, be quiet. Bcs it’s really hard for me (well, I hope it’s hard for him too, hahaha).

Sometimes I wondered, could I, we, survived this relationship? I just can’t imagine how, to be faraway from someone that really matter to you, someone that you want to tell everything on a first place, or simply someone you can hug if you need a support.

And also, there’s a time when we lives in two different worlds, well, not hearing his voice in a day it such a nightmare, but yap, I have to get used to it. I have to train myself for not being such a spoiled.

Anyway, despite all of the crazy things abt the long distance thingy, I still blessed for what I’ve got. I’m blessed that I have someone who always try to make sure that I have a great day before I called a day, even if I had a bad day, he know how to flip it back. Someone who always fulfill his promises and always try to make me happy, at least by giving me the goodnight greetings and kisses from faraway. He’s my daily-and-primary moodbooster β™‘

I love you from a thousand miles away! β™‘

Takkan pernah terlintas, tuk tinggalkan kamu, jauh dariku, kasihku….

Karena aku milikmu, kamu milikku, separuh nyawaku, hidup bersamamu

Berdua kita lewati, meski hujan badai takkan berhenti

Sehidup semati, mentari pun tahu, ku cinta padamu……

(Jaz – Teman Bahagia)

ps: can’t wait to see you, darling! I guess I’m going to love April as much I love November…. πŸ™‚



Have you ever feel too sad until you couldn’t cry?

Have you ever feel like you want to cry hard but you can’t, bcs you know you would hurt someone you love?

Have you ever feel like you have to wear a mask of ‘happy-face’ while deep down you feel so blue?

Yes, I have. And I feel it rite now.

[Monthly Love Letter] February : The Almost 100 Days We’ve Spent……

Actually I should’ve post these monthly letter on Saturday, February 3rd. So sorry for those who wait, bcs I had a very good time ’til I forget to write down my letter on that day. Anyway, congratulation to us for passing the 3 months! (yeaay). So, have you already tired or getting bored of my presence? Because I’m not and I won’t.

I have to say…. I love every second that I spent with you, especially when we have a little chitchat abt us, abt the day that we passed together, also, the daydreaming about how our future will be. I love to spend many times with you, even we don’t have anything to say, anything to tell. Being with you is just being the top of my favorite way to make myself happy!

In the other hand, there’s a little thing that actually really scares me…. Knowing that you gonna be so far away from me, somehow it hurts. Until now, I always try my best to deal and prepare myself in case tommorrow you’ll be gone. But don’t worry, everywhere you go, everywhere I go, we’ll make it through. Bcs I’ve heard someone’s saying that absence make heart grow fonder, and I believe that.

Thank you for always being there to support and cheer me up whenever I need it, thanks for always try to write a smile on my face, thanks for not letting me down and sad. You’re the best and I love you! πŸ™‚

” To be young and in love in New York City,
To not know who I am but still know that I’m good long as you’re here with me,
To be drunk and in love in New York City,
Midnight into morning coffee,
Burning through the hours talking……”

(Lauv – I like me better)

I know it’s not NYC and I’m not allowed to get drunk, but, I’m sure you got my point. See you on next monthly letter!

[Monthly Love Letter] January: The 61 Days Later….

Welcome back to the monthly letter, the summarize of my life on a month. Well, still talking abt the love-life bcs I still can’t imagine that we’ve passed another 31 days.

This month, I learn a lot. Mostly abt how to handle myself, how to think and react abt something that I didn’t get used to it. Including, to know you more, abt your characters, your personalities, your activities.

I’ve been busy lately, you…. also have been busy lately. But it doesn’t really matter bcs we know that we have each other hands and arms to hold on. Yes, I might not the one who understand you the most, but I’ll try my best to learn it. So, if someday you find something that annoys you or make you angry, just tell.

Anyway, for the record, I loved everytime you said you loved me, not only by words; but also, from the way you makes me laugh, makes a funny jokes, tells all the bedtime story, also, from the way you take care of me. Thank you πŸ™‚

You’re a carousel, you’re a wishing well, and you light me up, when you ring my bell.Β You’re a mystery, you’re from outer space, you’re every minute of my every day.

(Michael BublΓ© – Everything)