[Monthly Love Letter] February : The Almost 100 Days We’ve Spent……

Actually I should’ve post these monthly letter on Saturday, February 3rd. So sorry for those who wait, bcs I had a very good time ’til I forget to write down my letter on that day. Anyway, congratulation to us for passing the 3 months! (yeaay). So, have you already tired or getting bored of my presence? Because I’m not and I won’t.

I have to say…. I love every second that I spent with you, especially when we have a little chitchat abt us, abt the day that we passed together, also, the daydreaming about how our future will be. I love to spend many times with you, even we don’t have anything to say, anything to tell. Being with you is just being the top of my favorite way to make myself happy!

In the other hand, there’s a little thing that actually really scares me…. Knowing that you gonna be so far away from me, somehow it hurts. Until now, I always try my best to deal and prepare myself in case tommorrow you’ll be gone. But don’t worry, everywhere you go, everywhere I go, we’ll make it through. Bcs I’ve heard someone’s saying that absence make heart grow fonder, and I believe that.

Thank you for always being there to support and cheer me up whenever I need it, thanks for always try to write a smile on my face, thanks for not letting me down and sad. You’re the best and I love you! 🙂

” To be young and in love in New York City,
To not know who I am but still know that I’m good long as you’re here with me,
To be drunk and in love in New York City,
Midnight into morning coffee,
Burning through the hours talking……”

(Lauv – I like me better)

I know it’s not NYC and I’m not allowed to get drunk, but, I’m sure you got my point. See you on next monthly letter!


[Monthly Love Letter] January: The 61 Days Later….

Welcome back to the monthly letter, the summarize of my life on a month. Well, still talking abt the love-life bcs I still can’t imagine that we’ve passed another 31 days.

This month, I learn a lot. Mostly abt how to handle myself, how to think and react abt something that I didn’t get used to it. Including, to know you more, abt your characters, your personalities, your activities.

I’ve been busy lately, you…. also have been busy lately. But it doesn’t really matter bcs we know that we have each other hands and arms to hold on. Yes, I might not the one who understand you the most, but I’ll try my best to learn it. So, if someday you find something that annoys you or make you angry, just tell.

Anyway, for the record, I loved everytime you said you loved me, not only by words; but also, from the way you makes me laugh, makes a funny jokes, tells all the bedtime story, also, from the way you take care of me. Thank you 🙂

You’re a carousel, you’re a wishing well, and you light me up, when you ring my bell. You’re a mystery, you’re from outer space, you’re every minute of my every day.

(Michael Bublé – Everything)

It’s all about Faith and The ‘Happy-Ending-Expectations’


source: google

And I keep waiting for the day when this story is going to meet the end. Did I ever mention I hate the whole-happy-endings-on-drama thingy bcause its seems soo impossible? I really don’t mean to be pessimistic or sceptical, I just trying to be realistic. But yeah, as I told you, The universe will always and always made you learn to appreciate the efforts which they’ve already done.

Perhaps, its not about ‘what’ are the universe trying to tell us the suitable situation for us, but, its all about ‘how’ they guide us to something which we already have the faith on it, deep down.
And it will never goes wrong, what will happen in the future, its what you’ve been thinking, expecting, and believing it’ll happen.

So does this story. I have a faith on how this story is going to reach the end. Either it will be a happy-ending-story or sad-ending-story for me, I believe that, for you, its gonna be a happy-ending-story.

“Because maybe it’s dumb to look for signs from the universe, maybe the universe has better things to do – and dear God, I hope it does. Do you know how many signs I’ve gotten, how I should and shouldn’t be with someone? Where has it gotten me? Maybe there aren’t any signs. Maybe a locket’s just a locket; a chair’s just a chair. Maybe we don’t have to give meaning to every little thing. Maybe we don’t need the universe to tell us what we really want. Maybe we already know that. Deep down.” – Ted Mosby (How I Met Your Mother 8.23)


Komidi Putar

Komidi Putar

Bayangan itu sekelebat dan cepat. Datang diantara kontrasnya cahaya komidi putar dan gelap malam. Silau. Orang awam tak akan mampu melihatnya dengan mata telanjang, hingga aku berkesimpulan ini pesan masa depan. Aku melihatnya meski tak jelas, menatapnya, membangun koneksi yang terasa kuat, lalu ia pergi, kemudian menghilang begitu saja.

Jakarta, 04 Juli 2013