I dont want to be spoiled, annoyed, or such a sucks person.
I don’t want to be childish,
I don’t meant to be difficult, not at all.
But, everytime I have to deal, to cover my sadness with a happy voice…. Sometimes it hurts.
I just tryin’ my best to make you sure that I’m alrite, I’m okay.
But still, I need some time to adapt with this kind of situation.
I know I could do everything, I know you also know that.
I know I always have a thousand ways to make myself happy, I know you also thought that.
I know I will always find a way to recover myself, to do the self-healing. I also know you’re absolutely agreed abt that.
I know I will do everything, everything…. in my power, to make people I loved smile happily. I hope you understand that.
If you still do not understand that, it’s okay. You may used to think that I’m different, but apparently it’s not.
and I’m really sorry for that.
ps: if you asking me what or why, Tbh I can’t explain. Not bcs I don’t want to, but I totally don’t know, what’s wrong with me lately. I just feel like, I don’t know. Really.
Maybe I just, Missed you.